My personal take on being a submissive. I find most men in my life to be one thing. PATHETIC. Yep. I said it. Before you start writing the hate mail shades, read on…..
Whoa…wait…she is a sub, he biggest kinks are humiliation and degradation, and she says that?Yes. And this is why. All I have ever known in my 30-something years of life have been spineless pathetic men who don’t have the balls to stand up for themselves let alone anyone else. This is in family, love, and career. I won’t divulge into the family part. Let’s just say that lesson was learned VERY early on. My career I watched men who make life saving decisions cower to alpha women including myself ALL the time. In love, sadly I always got my way. And the more that happened, the more I pushed. I mean no one ever stopped me. So why not?
Now today I can look back and see the error in a lot of my ways. Being the cold, don’t fuck with me bitch really was not fulfilling, and after a while was no longer amusing as well. After all, it really was not what I wanted.
What do I want? I want a man. And one that I can respect. And no I don’t mean “take care of me and buy me things because I am pretty”. I mean I’m pretty. Haha. But I assure you I can and have taken care of myself for a very long time. I mean a man that has his own morals and convictions and isn’t afraid to stand up for what he believes in. Stand up for me and support me in my own beliefs. Protect me. Feed my demons and let them out. But be there to hold me when they do.
So yes I very much want all the things I blog about. I want to be bruised, choked, called disgusting names, and used like a whore. But my submission comes with one requirement. That I believe in you and respect you as a man. So maybe this is why I have such little experience. And maybe this is part of the reason I cannot do online anything.
And maybe, just maybe, if you find yourself doubting in my “true” submissiveness, the very person that you need to be looking at?
Is YOU.
To sum it all in one word. Freedom. Love is Freedom to be urself without being judged.
Always remember that a sub is as imp to a dom as a dom is to the sub. They r just different sides of same coin.
Don’t worry about not being able to do D/s online. It’s very tricky to do. Leo is exactly right, they are different side of the same coin. You must respect yourself and your partner, no matter what the roles are, for it to work. I’ve known submissive men that are more ‘Men’ than most men. Sounds like the problem with the guys previously in your life is that they were just poor human beings. Which has nothing to do with the lifestyle. Witness all the morons who send dick pics unsolicited. They don’t know how to behave around women.
Thank you for putting my own feelings into words as well! I cannot respect a man (or woman) who can’t respect themselves!
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